Awareness is a funny thing. It can’t be aware of itself. In an HPCT account, awareness of a perception is from the level above it—if it is controlled input, awareness of it is seated in the higher-level perception that is setting its reference value. But that’s a theoretical explanation. Check it out directly with your own awareness. There is no substitute.
Observing the observer is the essence of one kind of Koan. The observer observes from a different ‘place’ that is not the same as what is observed. Whenever you think you have the observer in the field of observation, there you are observing whatever it is from above or off to the side, and whatever it is that you thought was the observer isn’t the observer because here you are observing it over there. And if you can’t identify ‘ego’ (meaning I, me, myself) with the observer then where are you? Or for that matter, where are you anyway?
It’s been kind of a maxim of PCT that perceptions are our only source of knowledge, and that our knowledge is a remembered construction of perceptions. (The construction is also a perception.) The hypotheses, theories, and models in the sciences are complex perceptions which are systematically subjected to test and verification. Bridges and buildings stand, and semi-ballistic research vessels precisely transit distant planets and their moons, and by reliably doing so they attest to their compliance to Newtonian physics; GPS daily validates Einstein’s General and Special Relativity. But how embarrassing for physics that at least 95% of the physical universe is unknown to us. Closer to subjective home, we’ve inherited from uncountable generations of biological ancestors sensory organs and neural functions that construct our perceptual space-time universe, and the manifest fact that they survived so that we continue to live attests to a pretty rigorous testing against whatever reality really is. Good enough to go on, anyway. It is a tremendous help that socially we’ve inherited ways of insulating ourselves from loads of environmental challenges that would otherwise make life nasty, brutish, and short, artifacts like that Youtube dude’s t-shirt and hat and the homey room he’s sitting in, not to mention collaborative ways to obtain, maintain, and (some of us) create such things.
But these are all solidly (!) in the perceptual universe which your sensory organs and perceptual hierarchy construct for you the observer (for whom? what?). Perceptions which control systems in that hierarchy continually test by controlling their inputs through loops that extend out of your body into your actual environment, whatever that is. All you know of it is your perceptions, and I trust that continues to be good enough to go on for you, as it does for me. Most of the time. As far as I can tell.
The observer, however, is not perceived and is not a perception within your perceptual universe (see koan above).
Enter Dear old Mr. Watts and his famous half-koan. Your melancholic Youtube buddy quotes Watts imperfectly anticipating Rick’s insight: “You are an aperture through which the universe is looking at and exploring itself.” Or another way (from Qabalah), you are a center of expression for whatever it is that creates and sustains the universe. Placing that in HPCT, maybe from some cosmic point of view your perceptual constructs are a hilariously ludicrous fiction, but even so your control of your perceptions is (usually) closed through the real environment, whatever it is. Control of even fictional perceptions can have real consequences. Or Thaddeus Golas offers a lazy perspective informed by quantum physics:
We are equal beings and the universe is our relations with each other. The universe is made of one kind of entity: each one is alive, each determines the course of his own existence.
The universe is made of one kind of whatever-it-is, which cannot be defined. For our purpose, it isn’t necessary to try to define it. All we need to do is assume that there is only one kind of whatever-it-is, and see if it leads to a reasonable explanation for the world as we know it.
In one traditional perspective (e.g. Buddhism), there is no self. In another perspective (e.g. Vedanta, Qabalah) there is just one self, but it’s nature is potential, no-thing, a big goose-egg zero being actualized. Seems to me these are saying the same thing. What we perceive as a self is an illusory imagined perception. There does seem to be some sort of creativity going on and there are various ways of trying to figure out how our control of perceptions relates to it. We can believe it’s all an evolving happenstance, like the random dynamics chaos theory folks. Mr. Friston seems to be comfortable there among the woodlice. We can seek a communicative relationship with a kind of stepped down reflection within ourselves and within each person—what the Quakers, for example, call variously the Light, the seed, that of God in every person, etc. We can practice a discipline of awareness which more effectively distinguishes the confections, convections, and convictions of imagination from perceptions grounded in sensory input (innumerable traditions and methods). We can noodle along supposing we are what we currently imagine we are and how terribly deluded and selfish everyone is except for thee and me. And so on. Or one could make a youtube video telling everyone something new that no one has ever said before: you don’t exist, the self is an illusion and that’s a good thing.
All perfectly clear, right? But to whom?