[From Rick Marken (940521.1540)]
On the "personal observations about consciousness" front: I have been
wondering about just how "perceptible" are our wants (reference
signals). I was jogged into thinking about this while reading over Perry
Good's lovely books about child rearing. In there she describes wants
(reference signals) in a way that was once (and perhaps still is) popular
in the Reality Therapy world -- "pictures in your head". The idea is
that we are always trying to get our picture of reality to match the
picture in our head -- a fair description of a control system driving a
perceptual signal into a match with the reference signal. The
problem with this desciption of wants is that it gives the impression
that wants can be objects of awareness as can the perceptual signals
being controlled. I am beginning to think that this is not the case at
all; all we are aware of (I think) is the state of perceptual signals
which, if they are controlled variables, are nearly always very close to
their reference state. The only time we have anything like an awareness
of wants is when "things seem wrong"; perceptual signals are not in
their wanted states. But even when this happens I don't think we
have a good idea of what's wrong at the time that things are wrong --
that is, we are not aware of what perceptual signal(s) is not under
control. This has happened to me; I have felt something was wrong
and been unable to put my finger on what it was until things got better
(fortuitously or as a result of unconscious control processes).
I think wants (reference signals) lurk in the background of our being;
subjectively we are unaware of the contribution of our own wants to
our own behavior; we make the world be as we want -- or we experience
things as "wrong". I don't think that imagination really helps out
that much. Imagination (theoretically) is a replay of reference
signals into the path of the perceptual signals controlled by the
reference. But when we do this I don't think we are aware of our
imaginings as variations in wanted (actually, possibly wanted) states of
perceptual signals. We are just "behaving" in imagination --
controlling imaginations in the same way as we control perceptions in
normal control mode.
I'm not sure that we can become aware of wants; I think the best
we can hope for is to become aware of the perceptual variable being
controlled -- make that variable an object of experience, and then notice
that certain states of that variable seem "wrong"; the state that seems
right at the moment is the reference state.
The idea that wants cannot become objects of awareness explains (to me)
why it is so difficult for people to understand that perception itself is
not intrinsically good or bad; why people are appalled when it becomes
clear than another person does not experience the same perception as
"obviously" bad or good. The reference signals that give value to an
otherwise flat perceptual panorama sit silently in the background of
our consciousness - experienced only in terms of other perceptions,
the emotions. Even error signals are not objects of awareness themselves;
again, I think we know them only in terms of other perceptions -- emotions.
It is the silence of our reference signals -- which we really know about
only because of control theory -- that makes it so difficult for us to
tell that we are the one's who determine what is right and what is
wrong -- only we ourselves, in the form of their own invisible,
silent -- and unrelenting -- reference signals.
Best
Rick